I have two darling new nieces. Hailee Ann is the third child of my sister-in-law Elaine, and Taylor Alexis is the second child of my sister-in-law Michelle. (Of course, my brother and brother-in-law were both involved in the process of getting these babies here, but it’s motherhood specifically that I am contemplating tonight.) Seeing these two beautiful girls quickly takes me back to when I was a mommy of two or three babies myself.
Brenna was just 11 months old when Joshua was born. She was a bright, bubbly little thing, with short curly hair and big blue eyes. She was still just a baby herself when she became a big sister and an “Irish twin” to our Joshua. I still cannot believe how blessed we were to get pregnant again when Brenna was just a few months old, and to have another precious child when our first baby was still under the age of one. It was such a joy to have two darling babies! Having two babies under one was easy (though busy, of course) and fun and such a sweet time for me. I loved it!
When our third baby arrived, Brenna had just turned two and Joshua had just turned one. It was a busy, delightful time with three babies so close in age, with all three born in just two years time. Brenna was inquisitive and cheerful, Joshua was curious and busy, newborn Madalyn was so sweet and cuddly. It was blissful to have those sweet three little ones surrounding me all day long! I loved it!
As I remember all this and contemplate my role as a mother, here is what amazes me the most- those teeny, tiny babies, round and diapered and wispy-haired… have somehow grown up!! Brenna, Joshua, and Madalyn, my first three little babies, are all children now, having left babyhood behind long ago. And, even more incredible, those three babies of mine have grown to almost six children in our home now! I will soon have SIX children!! I can still hardly believe my good fortune! We are indescribably blessed!
I often think of myself as young mommy. I feel young. I look young, or so everyone tells me. I’m 28, which isn’t too old either. But mostly, I feel like a young mommy because I still think of ALL my babies as BABIES. I often find myself thinking that my babies are all toddlers and preschoolers, when I actually have elementary schoolers now, in addition to my other children that are preschoolers, toddlers, infants, and still growing inside me. I have children that are losing teeth now, children that are growing tall, children who can pump themselves on the swings, read their own chapter books at bedtime, and ride two-wheelers.
And I don’t just have one or two or three little ones at my knees. I have five children gathered around me now, with my sixth baby on the way. Six children still seems like a small number to me, but I know that most people don’t feel that same way. Six kids is an enormous crowd as far as most people.
It’s strange to see my two sister-in-laws with their two and three children each. It’s strange because I still feel like I am there myself, there with just a few tiny babies… instead of nearly six kids who range from baby up to elementary schooler. It’s strange because it’s happened so fast; my babies have grown up so quickly that it takes my breathe away.
I can feel my world changing. Not long ago, I had just two or three babies. Not long ago, our days revolved around naptime and trips to the park. Not long ago, the entire world seemed to be contained within the walls of our home. And now everything is changing as my babies grow. I think there will always be a part of me that misses those early days of motherhood. They were so sweet, so simple, so blissful.
But I also love where I am at. It is incredible to watch children grow. They truthfully just get more and more fun as time goes on. I am having such a blast with my big kids, and my little kids, and my babies! Life is good!
I look forward to many great years ahead. I am excited to watch my children continue to grow and develop. I am excited to add more and more tiny babies to our growing family. Like I said, I will always miss those sweet and simple early years of motherhood. But I find great joy in where we are now, and great joy in the future as well.