We made a pre-bedtime run to Walmart for pull-ups for Joshua to sleep in tonight. (He slept without a pull-up last night and had soaked through four towels by 1am!) Joshua, Maddie, and Braden all fell asleep on the ride home (just as I hoped they would), but Brenna was wide awake.
After I tucked the little ones into bed, Brenna asked very sweetly if she could just have a “quick” movie night. She was just so cute that I agreed to let her watch a 30-minute “Angelina Ballerina” DVD. Two hours later she was still awake. She’d spent that entire time prancing in and out of my room, begging for bites of my oven-baked pizza, and requesting just one more hug.
At about 10:15 I sent her to bed, but was aware of her sitting just outside my bedroom door. Then I heard Maddie start to whimper in her bed. I called for her to come to me, and then turned around to see both Brenna and Maddie coming into my room. Then Joshy’s little blond head popped around the corner too, completely surprising me because I had no idea that he was awake!
I pulled back the covers on my bed, and invited all three kids to climb in with me. Grinning, they all snuggled down in bed next to me and next to each other, packed side by side in our queen bed like little sausages.
It makes me happy to have them with me. I like looking over and seeing three little blond heads, three tiny noses, and three pairs of round, innocent eyes. I like seeing them all tucked in together. I like having the three of them so close to me as we fall asleep. I wish Braden were here too.
I remember when Rick was home, we would sometimes end up with three or four kids in bed with us all at the same time. I remember how sweet it was to wake up in the morning and see Rick’s sleeping face, all the way on the other side of a ”kid pile” in between us. We would reach across all those little ones, so that we could hold hands, and it was like our entire family was wrapped up in a hug. Even though the bed was crowded that way, I always liked the feeling of knowing that I was inches away from everything that was most precious to me.